To desire and be desired

Monday, October 22, 2007

I desire nothing less than to be desired. To be loved for who I am. Not for what I can offer. Wanted not to selfishly fufill But to whole heartedly give By one who’s delighted and captivited, by the flash within the eyes by the thoughts and visions  That wizz and blurr through the mind enlighting a swelling joy to heart. Imbraces oddness, and pecilur ways The quirky ideas and spontanious rainy days Carpe de Diem “Seize the day” Take the opportunity Dont let it pass away I’m told to live laugh and love while i can Live life to the fullest in its short span And fufill the deep desires indwelling with in React to the notion that crawls through my skin And as I lay away at night, and cling to my sheets My mind digests thoughts that dark of night greets. “Carpe Diem.” But I can’t “Why dont you follow us in our silly game? Fall in and out of infactuation, start over less than the same. Why can’t you gratify your self for a while? Give into lifes pleasures, retreat from denial.” But I cant. I can’t share my heart. Its not mine to give Yet this world tries to steal it from me. Captivated in the hand of my Creator, My Heart only there is set free. I’m sorry I cant please you. I only aim to please One. Im sorry I cant join you, its not my idea of fun. Im sorry I cant love you, You simply arnt the one Oh my God I praise you For all that you have done. I have choosen to be his choosen I’m devoted to my devotion. I imbrace that I am beloved Because he first loved me. It is a sacrifice. It is hard. It is worth it. No one can satisfy the soul like Christ.