Less than profound.
March 28, 2008 by kaybaylor
In my post I do my best to strengthen and encourage leaders, but most of all bring Glory to God.
This post may come across to you as less than profound. And thats okay, but as my heart wells up to write- typing overflows.
I dont know if you keep a spiritual journal, a humbled and vulnerable personal assesment of growth and thoughts and weaknesses. But if you dont, I would encourage you to do so. Its been one of the greatest tool in building upon the foundation of my faith.
I often times read it and think “Wow, I was so ignorant back then…. look how much God has shown me!” It’s actually very amusing to see your own stupidity, and very exciting to see your growth since. Its also so encouraging knowing how much you will learn in the next year.
But today, instead of seeing how I’ve grown. Ive seen how I’ve shrank.
My words of conviction and steadfastness struck a huge blow of humility as I realized how far I’ve fallen.
Im a sinner. And its so wonderful to think of, knowing that I’m saved by grace.
That my faults are not my folly but my chance to repent and fall back to dependence on God.
And once again I am excited that God is setting me back on track, and once again I’m excited to see whats instore.
Soli deo Gracia
The most amazing and faith building thing I get from looking back on my past journal entries come from perusing the times when I know that I was struggling. My journal tends to take the form of prayers. When I look back at those often desperate times, I see in retrospect how God was at work even as I despaired and called out. He answers prayers in such an amazing way that it cannot help but build a more intense faith as a response. I pray that your new vigor in your walk leaves you blessed and bolstered in your renewed faith. God bless.
The most amazing and faith building thing I get from looking back on my past journal entries come from perusing the times when I know that I was struggling. My journal tends to take the form of prayers. When I look back at those often desperate times, I see in retrospect how God was at work even as I despaired and called out. He answers prayers in such an amazing way that it cannot help but build a more intense faith as a response. I pray that your new vigor in your walk leaves you blessed and bolstered in your renewed faith. God bless.
Thank you Bshelley. I empathize with every word of your comment.
It’s amazing to look back and see what God was working out while our less than divine minds couldn’t comprehend the sovereignty of His plan. God is faithful.
Let the prayer of Paul be the motivation:
“And this is my prayer: that your love may abound more and more in knowledge and depth of insight, so that you may be able to discern what is best and may be pure and blameless until the day of Christ, filled with the fruit of righteousness that comes through Jesus Christ—to the glory and praise of God.”